Things have been pretty crazy...as of late, they have become even crazier. Lots of worries, tons of stress. Funny thing is I shouldn't be stressing.

I've been praying a lot recently. Praying for family & friends in my "real life" and friends "on-line". Praying they find strength, courage, patience and the ability to succumb to God's will. Making room for a miracle in some cases.

Tonight I had a bit of an epiphany while folding laundry, and thinking. Goodness knows I've done more than my fair share of thinking lately. Dissecting, examining & digesting things. Repeatedly. As I'm folding, the question posed itself, when have I prayed for myself? When have I prayed for my family, my immediate family that is... I can't remember the last time. Sure I do the daily, "Thank you for letting me live another day" thing, but to really ask for guidance and/or protection.

A calming of fears is needed. The weight of my burdens to be lifted. By definition, I guess, I'm not an overly spiritual person. I do believe & pray, but I don't have a church home or anything of that nature. Sad, but true. At one point I was. Looking back, it was mainly while married to and divorcing my first husband. That relationship was one of turmoil. I learned a great deal from my then "church family". I wasn't a "Bible Thumper", as some are labeled. I really just tried to incorporate His word into my life, so I'd have a sturdy foundation. A foundation, the marriage I was in was lacking.

I guess that's what amazes me most, finding myself worrying so much right now. I know better. What a silly girl I've been! All things will be provided.

Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you;
he will never let the righteous fall.
Psalm 55:22 NIV

So, it's now that I'm turning over my troubles. Washing my hands of worries.

Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your soul. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
Matthew 11:28-30 NIV

As I sit typing & reveling in this moment of clarity, I think, for the first time in over a month sleep may come easy. It's quite possible, I may get more than 3 hours tonight. What a wonderful thought!

Some may believe as I do and so may not. I don't have the answers. What I do know, at this moment in time. I feel calmer than I've been in some time. I feel lighter...and I hear my pillow calling me.

-Goodnight.

Okay, so I've remodeled the look of my blog & am starting "anew"...well sort of. I'm keeping my few previous entries & going with it. I've been putting off posting this for some time, waiting for the right time. To have everything in order, to have nothing being neglected or overlooked as I steal a few moments away to type. I realize, it's just not going to happen, so I'll begin.

I had once hoped to carry this into a sort of food blog, nothing gourmet mind you, just me. I don't have time for that. I so wish I did. I do cook & love to cook, but my adventures aren't as frequent as I had hoped. Most of our meals are really aren't awe inspiring as I find so many others to be.

While admitting I don't have the time I wish I did for cooking, I'm still going to cook, (after all, we do have to eat!) and post what I can or feel might be an interest to someone. Or, I'll post for my own future reflections.

So, this is me. Here I am. Muddling my way through with my husband and kids carving out our little niche. There will be some cooking, some crafts, some of everything I find along my way...and basically, well, there will be me!

Okay, so I took the summer off from BBA due to a full calendar of events. My last course of action, before doing so, was to tackle the bagels! My whole family is crazy about bagels and were very excited with this challenge.